Big stretch!
Wow... what a time out.
During this time out, I've come to conclusion to open up more about my journey. Giving the tips and tricks of the trade, but also expressing the ever-delicate balancing act of Supermom-Mediumistic-Wifey. So, whether you're new or an occasional visitor here, WELCOME to my perfectly imperfect, spiritual life.
With all of the stress of the world...
...Everything and everywhere on the planet appears to be disheveled and in an uproar.
Even my family life was off--my beautiful, brilliant, yet troubled son was not doing well and my typical inner self motivation was lack luster and heavy. All I wanted to do was curl into myself. It became evident that I needed a reset: a complete break from the world and social media engagement. Now, for those who follow me, you would have noted some personal pictures and updates peppered throughout the month, but as far as engagement goes, I left it to everyone else.
I did find solace in more mediumship development classes, which I took many (at least once a week & sometimes two to three per week). I also maintained my six days per week gym schedule; however, I amped up the duration and variety with my weight training.
I became hyper-focused on filling my cup. I grounded myself heavily in "worldly" things, like: hanging out with family and friends, shopping, & drinking cocktails poolside.
Although I was enjoying myself, after a couple of weeks of this, I began to feel off. I took an evaluation of my life... it was imbalanced, again. My son was having more outrages and I felt the tremors of anxiety in the pit of my stomach.
And then, my husband lost his job. It has actually turned itself into a blessing but at the time, it was a whirlwind of, "What's the plan? What are our next steps? Let's figure this out." My husband and I have been under the gun, so to speak, before with our first business venture together. We knew how to pick ourselves up. I was happy, stressed, but happy; my husband, Jamie, was under a great deal of stress and he would have stayed at his job and put up with it forever unless something happened. And it did.
Jamie got into an argument with a subordinate. Granted, he should not have lost his temper; however, I'm told "the used car service department world" tends to illicit this sort of reaction from employees from time to time. & After hearing his troubles, day after day, that led to the pinnacle of the issue, I was happy to hear he was moving on.
While I felt more present in this little world, I couldn't have felt further from my spiritual self. I had been neglecting my spiritual tools; I was no longer meditating daily, not even weekly at this point, and I stopped reading altogether. My classes kept my connection to Spirit, thankfully and in this regard, I felt recharged. I managed to have many wonderful readings in class with only a few classes where I questioned, "why the hell am I doing this?"
Spirit has a funny way of working things out...
At the start of July, I had a lot of sudden one-on-one reschedules. I was confused, at first, at the synchronicity. It did finally become apparent as to why it was happening: I had a kidney stone and then my son's emotions started to boil over (I discovered later that Nate missed two doses of his medicine while I was laid up with the inconvenient stone).
Backstory: He has been diagnosed with ADHD since very little (but he didn't start taking medication for it until a few years ago) and suffers from general anxieties. Earlier this year, he gave me a cry for help and with the advice of his doctor, he found himself in the care of psychiatric doctors and evaluations. For months, we have been navigating the unsettling world of medications and finally, in June, we seemed to have found the perfect mix for his brilliant mind.
If you've never had to sit by and listen to your teenager scream at the top of his lungs the most heart wrenching, hurtful words while trying to protect him and keep him safe, then you may never know how sad I was during those days where I was alone, trying to cook lunch/dinner and keep my other child blissfully unaware, all while trying to keep it together and not flip out. Those were the times I needed my spiritual tools most, and yet I decided to allow the aches and pain to settle in, over and around me, until my husband came home from his subcontracted job from an entrepreneur friend of his. A look at the calendar during these days and I noticed that I would have actually had scheduled clients on those days. Spirit is intelligence.
I am happy to report that my son's emotions finally evened out after carefully monitoring and easing him back to his normal dosing schedule.
Feeling like a million bucks!
On the first day of August, I woke up with renewed energy. I had an all day mediumship class and it was stellar. Readings were on point and I felt Spirit so near. The next day, I had a trance class and I trusted Spirit like I never had and delivered my most accurate Spiritual assessment (much different than a mediumship/psychic reading) I have ever given. I carved out some time to meditate several times since then and I'm now feeling balanced and calm.
Jamie started his new job and is really enjoying it. It isn't stressful and he can listen to his favorite tunes all day.
July turned out to be an ever-looping opportunity for healing and my soul is all the better for it. I can say that now. For July, I've learned several things:
The universe has a way of making paths clear, even when you try to resist.
Never ignore the synchronicities: things happy for a reason & there are no coincidences.
How to connect to my son better.
That no matter what I may be feeling, Spirit will always be there for me, ready to connect whenever I am ready and willing.
I will post more how to's as I see fit, but I wanted to have an opportunity to be vulnerable and share my life and how tough it can be to juggle it all. Maybe I'm alone in the struggle, but maybe I'm not. I know my life isn't perfect and I don't always know what's best. Does anyone really?
If you resonate with my life or situations, let me know! We're in this together!
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